Maje Ayida, a fitness entrepreneur, and the ex-husband of popular Nollywood actress and reality star, Toke Makinwa, has revealed that his crashed marriage and divorce with the actress had a terrible effect on him.

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‎He made this revelation during a testimony shared at a church in the UK, stating how his divorce with Toke Makinwa affected him and made him depressed, paranoid, and led to career setbacks.

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‎He further explained that he could not face the public for sometime, as the perception of what they would think about him greatly clouded his mind, and made him decide to withdraw from the society. He added that he researched on how to deal with it, and he had to take accountability for his actions.

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‎He said:
‎"I was out of the loop for a whole year. I checked out of life for a year to recoup. I realised that I was in a very dark space. I was in a hole, but I needed to get out of it… I was on the floor. What’s sleep? I didn’t even know what that was. I had insomnia.

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‎“I was overly suspicious as well, so the few chances that I do get to go out, I have created a scenario in my own mind that everybody is talking about me, people are looking at me. And that would just send me back into my own home.

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‎That feeling of hopelessness and the noise that was going on around me, even though I was in silence, was out of control. I made a choice. I decided that I didn’t want to stay in this space.

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‎I did research on how to deal with it. The top of the list of the research that I did was accountability. I took the blame on myself. It made me feel worse at first until I began to take practical steps.”

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